My Reality.

Henry Vu

When an opportunity comes up, it feels like I have a chance with you then when I hear something else. I just lose all hope with ever trying to be with you. I guess me being such a diminish person won’t ever have any chance with anyone and at the same time it isn’t too bad; though it does have its benefits in its own unique way. With the way I am going at the moment, being alone is so far the best way I can vision myself in the near or far future, alienation from any kinds of groups or so called ‘friends’. I overthink and over-thinking kills my happiness, I just can’t help it sometimes and question myself, as well as asking others out of curiosity “Do I look that type of person who is optimistically, cheerful and confident?” Some say yes and some may say no, it really is a question that I ask out of the blue and for some reason no matter what the answer is, I tend to ignore it, since either way I am a ‘non-existence’ person, who only, but mimics the ones who exist in this world. Even trying to be different in as many ways as I possibly can, it always feels just like I’m walking around in circles just to end up from where I started, ‘nothing’…
“Not anything; no single thing, something of no importance or concern.” Exactly, even so, I have no intentions of losing myself in my own world but I do have the feeling that one day, I will lose everyone, everything around me and drown. Feeling lonely everyday isn't something so pleasant to feel when deep down inside you have absolutely no one.

I have said it in the past many times and still today in the present I remind myself all the time, “change”. I want to change, change to become more of the person then I am and change to understand more, more, more and more of this large yet small world. Me, myself just like any other human being, I feel really privileged to be living, to be breathing in this world that is full of “promise”. That promise, is promising if you work hard, try your best, wait patiently and see life till the “final destination”. But it doesn’t end from there just like one of the quotes that I find to be amazing and inspiring “Anyone who stops learning is old, whether at twenty or eighty. Anyone who keeps learning stays young. - Henry Ford” life is full of questions, so never stop learning, even if you don’t understand. Because every single day is precious and with the thought of living never blame any day in your life because what I have learned and experienced is that you will have Good days that will give you happiness, Bad days that give you experience and the Worst days in which will inevitability give you a lesson.
Live your life to the fullest without regrets.